Small Things taht make us Happy

He is a guy who has been betrayed many times. He has everything: loving parents, cool siblings, good family environment, money. But even though he is rich and handsome he doesn´t have single friend. He hates people. He is not happy. He dresses up badly just to be alone. He acts weird, looks mad all the time, never smiles and doesn´t like to talk to anyone. Just to be alone. So everyone avoids him. Maybe he feels really lonely inside? He has given up his life, his love his trust. He has lost all of his confidence, his pride, he has lost everything so he is not even able to smile anymore. His mind is dead. His soul sleeps somewhere in depths of his miserable heart crying in it´s sleep. Crying for help, trying to get away from the lonely feeling that makes it bleed and scream. His soul is afraid to meet the light because light always shows the truth and the truth may be ugly. He is scared to get another wound, he is scared to meet shameless people with dirty minds. Scared to give in and be betrayed again. To be trampled under vicious legs of his enemies. That´s why he doesn´t´t smile. Because trough wide smile you can see person´s soul. Then it has nowhere to hide.

She in the other hand is a cheerful girl. She is strong, easygoing and friendly. She is even pretty but for some reason she has turned every guy down. Now everybody thinks she is too proud but that´s not true. Scars from the past haunt her every day. Image of drunken father and poor mother arguing every night to the point where they killed each other never lets her rest. Every night having nightmares, waking up in the darkness with a scream. But that has made her very strong. It´s not like she doesn´t have any friends, she has plenty. But she has buried all the secrets deep in her heart. Living peacefully with grandma in a small apartment. That's how she is, always smiling and never letting anyone down. Simply protecting the weak ones. Being one of them and understanding the pain of true fear. Hiding secrets bigger than herself, bigger than her soul and heart could ever take. So big that she actually didn´t even have a place to hide them. But she learned to live with them even though it meant waking up in the morning without any rest. Even though it meant living unhappy life full of pain and fear.

They never knew about each other, they didn´t know they were in the same class, they didn´t know they lived in the same town. But one day he was almost beaten up by bullies. As always, he would take the hits and crawl to the shadows to lick his wounds like a coward. Never fighting back, never raising his head to look in the eyes of the enemy he hated so much. Taste of blood and pain he could barely take, he hated it the most in whole world.

But this time it was different, someone came to his rescue. Just passing buy and noticing wrong act by luck she protected him. While they were hitting him she stepped in and took all attention to herself letting him escape. While cowardly running away strange feeling struck him. He messed up his hair, took off stupid glasses he didn´t even need and stepped in the fight. For once being the one who´s winning, being the one fighting for something. It made him feel very good. He suddenly tasted blood and felt the pain but it was different feeling, it was something far more superior than getting beaten up. It felt like his soul opened it´s eyes and crawled from the depths of darkness to see the light it had abandoned so long ago.

She barely saw him fighting because she collapsed after bearing the hits. But while he carried her in the infirmary she thought she smelled something really familiar. Something peaceful and warm. After waking up she thought it was a dream, a prince saving her. The thought seemed impossible. She was afraid of guys, actually very afraid of being hit just like her mother thus for her, true love was something impossible. But suddenly she noticed him, she talked to him in the class asked if everything was ok. "Let´s have lunch together. I bet you always have it alone" He thought it was a joke and agreed. Well, her smile was charming and her words kind. While looking at her he thought maybe something like trust wasn´t impossible afetr all. But in her eyes he saw something familiar, something he felt every day. Pain and fear of a weak person.

They ended up sitting in the park on the warm bench under sakura tree, both staring at their lunchboxes unwillingly. She made it herself, he receiver high quality lunch box from his mother as always. To him it tasted like paper, for her it was all the same as before. After a quiet moment she spoke "Let´s exchange". He only looked at her in silence and finally entrusted lunchbox in her hands. Looking at something different they carefully tasted new and unfamiliar taste of a new start. He was excited, he suddenly started talking and praised her cooking. It was almost magical how words flew out of his mouth. It has been long since he spoke with such enthusiasm. But she suddenly fell asleep. Not having nightmares, just sleeping quietly with a smile on her face. "Somehow I feel relaxed. Sitting like this in the sun, under sakura tree eating lunch. Maybe I feel happy?" he thought and smiled at sleeping face of a beautiful girl. In his eyes she seemed like a goddess who brought him back to life. Silently, carefully he placed tender kiss on her cheek and in her sleep she smiled seeing a good dream.

But this is only beginning. They only met each other. Not knowing anything they just found the way in each other´s hearts. Learning how to be happy and facing difficulties. Life is great. But what will happen next? Maybe it was the last time they were sitting on that bench. Maybe sakura tree will die tomorrow or maybe it will survive another day. For him to learn how to trust and for her to forgive and learn how to love. For them both to find lost happiness. At first it seems impossible but when they are fighting for the same goal. It suddenly seems to be fun. Noticing small things around us, small things that make us happy. It´s the most simple thing we can do, just sit quietly for a while and look around.

The End